Pic from 2020 vs 2022 before surgery vs now Can I vent to y..

Pic from 2020 vs 2022 before surgery vs now

Can I vent to yall? A lil feels moment? 🥺
I miss my larger boobies. Like this. I wish I stayed like that :( but noooo, somehow (reasons) had gained 60 lbs in 1-2 years. I think I was 140 in this pic. Maybe 150. I was a girl who grew up skeleton skinny, also for no reason. I ate like trash during my teens LOL. I just remember being content. I get a lil sad whenever I see older pictures.
I just don't miss what came with them. When I gained all that weight... oh good lord so did they LMFAO. I have chronic neck pain now. Started a year or two before this picture. When I did have the reduction & lift it felt like I took off a backpack.

But, still reminiscent. I'm very self conscious about my scars. They're still all fairly new as far as the healing process as a whole. I have been thinking about implants the past few months. Not something I can afford but it's just.. an intrusive lingering thought. At least to get them to be similar shape and size of ^ since my body is back at that now. Maybe even skinnier. It's scary.
I def noticed a lot less boobie posting the past two years. Sorry boob luvas.
Just venting. SPILLIN MA GUTS. All of this is centered around body so it's a hard decision for many reasons. God.

The 2nd is a pic of when I lose 40 lbs, and went in for the surgery. The weight loss made them bitches like DEFLATE?! AAA. I hate that picture. Hate hate hate. Bruh I feel nervous n vulnerable even posting it.

Then the now. I don't hate them!!! Just the side scars, and some of the shape. You couldn't even see my waist in the 2nd pic. Imagine you lose so much weight and.. yea. I think anyone would be able to see how this hurt, especially in **this industry** lmfao.

Idk. Will I? Probably, if I can. I still have time for healing and changing my heart about it, I feel like this scar stuff don't do shit but I'll be on top of it 😓 I wanna do missionary pov so bad, and tbh my breasts are why I avoid it unless I have a shirt.

SORRY. I AM JUST A PERSON HAHAHA
Thanks for being here, listening to my dumbass