Over the weekend I discovered my boyfriend cheated on me whi..
Added 2022-07-04 11:25:47 +0000 UTCOver the weekend I discovered my boyfriend cheated on me while in prison, and while I am devastated by this I realise my grief is for a person who I thought existed, not for someone who actually did. He served a very minimal but important purpose in my life but I don't want to give the guy too much credit. He didn't support me in ways that I needed, and the confident, self assured ambitious man I thought he was in fact ended up being an insecure, manipulative & hopeless individual. I feel angry, betrayed and fooled, but this feels harder to contend with due to the context in which he cheated. I've been through hell the last 18 months & he thought it was OK to contribute to it. I've been let down by people and systems for months now, but I also realise how supported by others I have been. Directing my anger towards him takes away from the love and gratitude I need to be directing towards my family, friends and comrades. Its a kick in the teeth but I'll overcome it. I hope heartbreak heals quickly, but if it doesn't, I hope it it strengthens me. Here is a sleepy picture of me. I accept this will be a difficult time. X
